Well, damn.

I am a terrible blogger etc etc yawn etc.

There's not much to say in a blog that I guess I've sort of geared toward my mental issues when there's nothing really going on in my life on that front. Good lord that was a long sentence.

Yesterday, I threw up. I got a bit of a concussion from hitting my head and a few hours later I had to cure myself, apparently, by throwing up. Then calling my mother in absolute panic and fear, going to the emergency room and getting checked out, and theeen getting drugged up.

Today I spent the day napping, pretty much. And having other people bring me things. My mother brought me groceries and cooked me food. My brother brought me a Jeeves and Wooster DVD. There's a lot to be said about my family dynamics and the woe it has brought me in the past... but I know that if I have to be taken care of, I am.

The vomitting wasn't bad, my friends. That's the second time in three weeks I've thrown up (my stomach does not agree with coffee). I'm not fearful of it now. When I realized that my God, I will be seeing my dinner again, I didn't get so much as an increased heartrate. Just acceptance, and waiting. It's so fascinating to me. So odd.


In other areas of my life... well. I've been working nights this whole summer. Making the moolah, serving the elderly etc. It's been great. I really loved working there - even though it's involved a lot of butts. Excrement comes out of butts. I feel kind of purposeless now that I don't have any scheduled work left. Considering calling them and just begging to come hang out so I at least get to know how all my elderly peeps are doing.

My husband is away in America. Again. The first three weeks it was like a bit of a holiday for me too. A time to cleanse myself with silence kind of thing. Well, I feel fully cleansed and lonely now. Daunting that it's only half the time has gone now. Hmm.

Well, last time I went to the evaluatory therapy meeting they said I should get a letter with a time in August. So theoretically, within thirteen days I should have it in my hands.